Thursday, July 2, 2015

Does Anyone Read This Any more?

I feel the need to share again. To put my thoughts on the table for those to read. Nothing earth shattering, I don't think, but none the less, I feel the need.

Turmoil? Unrest? No...perhaps wishing for a little more happy in my life. How do I find a little more happy? You can't rely on other people to make you happy. Happiness comes from within.  Happiness comes from myself.  I am responsible for my own happiness.  There it is.

How shall I proceed to find that happiness?  Getting involved in my creative side?  Allowing that instinct to flow once again?

Since the company I worked for closed last year, I have felt as though there was a void in my life.  The void stems from not having that financial security I once had.

 Oh, I have a part time job in a field I never thought I'd enter.  Food industry.  It's fun actually, but I'm sure that is because I work with a awesome woman who is my friend.  A person I thought would never give me the time of day.  She's tall, beautiful, exercise nut in excellent shape.  I thought to myself, she'd never become my friend.  But she did!

Here's the funny part....she never thought someone like me would be friends with someone like her!  Uncanny!  She respects me.  Draws on my life experiences.  Loves our talks.  I guess we compliment each other.

This is one example where you shouldn't judge a book by their cover.  I find this to be true each and every day.  Old people...young people...poor people...we are just the same.  We all feel inadequate .  We all feel small sometimes.  It just takes a kind work.  A smile.  And you break down those insecurities.   Yes, it is that simple.

These are my people in my present life but I am missing most the people from my past life.  And missing a little bit OF the past life as well.the ladder I cannot get back.  It is unreachable.  Unatainable.

In order for the unattainable to reemerge, some things must be realigned.  Finding a job that fulfills me at the intellect level, responsibility aspect and the monetary level. In order to get this in order, I have a plan which will begin tomorrow.

Tommorow I start rebuilding that part of my life.  So watch me take off.  Watch me.

A note for anyone who reads this.....a caution....all of this post written under the muse of a sleeping pill.

I just may write tomorrow.

Monday, November 24, 2014

Calm Before The Storm

Is it because you feel small?  Is it because you fell I inadequate?  Do you not look at both sides of a story?  Let's just go first to violence. Innocent business owners don't deserve this violence. They are small business owners.  Hard working people. Whites. Blacks. Latino. Ruin their lives because clearly you do not know the facts. 12 people spent 70 hours listening to 60 witsnesses over a period of time.

Yeah, you know better.

Sunday, February 10, 2013

Forge Ahead

The last couple of days have been hard ones.
This may be contributed to the tons of rainy weather,
But I think that's just an excuse.
I'm waiting for the things I need, because I think it is time.
He has another plan.
I will plow ahead.

Friday, January 25, 2013

It's Friday ...

* When did my husband start falling asleep at 8:00?
* TV sucks on Friday night, guess that's why everyone goes out
* Come on people, Atlanta barely received a millimeter of ice, what's the problem with the news?
* Yes, I made my appointment for my mammogram's Tuesday, wish me luck!
* I really dislike Sharktank.
* Who knew Catfishing had nothing to do with fish?
* I think I can read my cat's mind. He thinks I'm cool.
* Whenever I'm on the upward side of being sick, I want fried rice.

Monday, December 24, 2012

Merry Christmas to All

Merry Christmas to Family and Friends....

Thursday, July 12, 2012

Three days off...

... What shall I do? Get in the car and drive to the gulf? Become one with the ocean? Return to the womb for 3 days...spend the next 3 days reading? Sleeping? Crafting? What, shall I do?

Saturday, June 30, 2012

Happy birthday, Honey

The 4th of July isn't just our Nation's birthday, it is my husband's birthday , too.

Happy Birthday, you little firecracker!